methamphetamine

title; psychostimulant/sympathomimetic. typically known to you as meth.

yesyes, i have been working on the webcomic recently~ john's my co-editor. beez helping me with the storyline and such. i've also got someone to help me with the proportions, but they don't want to be named so i'll respect that. (:

well i'm halfway through with the 23rd page of the webcomic. for now, the working title is "auestadt." it's a name of one of the anarchist sectors. it's the first one.

the Anarchy is a growing society that developed within Deadworld to oppose its power, for it is
run like an internationally corrupt government with equally as corrupt punishments for just about anything. however, its leader's identity is unknown, so nothing that the Anarchy does can be traced back to them.
they are infamous for instigating riots and infiltrating the security of various government locations.

in other words, they are, in a sense, "freedom fighters." only more violent.
most of the Anarchists belong to either the munich or the hoffstadt sectors.
if you're confused---

sector auestadt anarchist. [01]
often referred to as the "soldiers" of the Anarchy. they're the most sadistic and unmerciful of all sectors, but they are limited in number. for this reason, sector auestadts are usually the most feared; however, despite these unruly qualities, they are very cooperative and loyal to their superiors, albeit cruel to others.
the only information released about their leader is the name "mateo."

sector hoffstadt anarchist. [02]
the "proxies." sector hoffstadts ensure the safety of a mission, though most are just there to accompany other sectors. should the time call for it, they can be almost as murderous as the auestadts; ...almost. hoffstadts have the reputation of being inferior to their other sectors because they don't fight as much, but in reality, none of the sectors would survive without them. their leader is currently unknown, but some believe it to be siler.

sector munich anarchist. [03]
the "innocents." they partake in fighting, more than the hoffstadts do in general; but not enough in rapid succession to be considered hostile. the munich sector is still fairly new in the Anarchy, so there isn't much about them as of yet.

yeah. basically the webcomic centres around auestadt and hoffstadt, but i don't put much focus on munich because they aren't important as of yet.

so anyway... i'm up to the point where i'm done with introductions, and i'm off to killing people. yeah. i'm killing off taku, ike, and sasha off first. i know i'm going out of the deadworld order, but sierra and addy kinda have 'special deaths.'
addy dies because of sierra, and she dies as a result of HIS dying so it's a chain.

continuation of this update is soon to come. too lazy right now.

phencyclidine

title; pcp.
clarification on names.

dilan shiloh holt
[this is siler, in case you're wondering "wtf is this."] i never use his full name http://auramix.deviantart.com/gallery/#the-muse-
first; im particularly fond of "dylan." however i cannot even begin to tell you how much i dislike using the regular spelling of names. so i changed a letter. lol.
but his name was 'viktor' around the time i first created him. [like... around the 'black hair with the white streak' time..] ... yknow, after viktor krum. the guy from harry potter. ... now that i think about it, wtf was i thinking
middle; ...is my grandma's puppy in california. shiloh is a girl, but she's massively adorable~ love.
last; i don't know. i was watching some kind of show about halo on a gaming network, and the host's last name was 'holt' so i guess it kind of stuck on me... [...was going to be 'arsenault' if 'holt' didn't pop up... .__.]
nickname(s); siler can be interpreted as a typo of 'silver' or a shortened version of his original name. however you want to see it is fine with me...
'sasha' is taken from alexander artemev. :>

addrian mateo healey
uuh... i just noticed that both names [thus far] end in -an, contain two vowels in the middle name, and both last names start with 'h'. aha, whut. ...... whut. http://auramix.deviantart.com/gallery/#the-soliloquist-
first; ... now i'm not going to lie to you, but i was watching yugioh one morning [5am plz.] and one of the characters was "adrian." i like the sound of that one... i mean like, aaay - dreeee - iiiinnnn.. so...me being me .... i changed the spelling and made it 'ahd - dree - an'. hahah
middle; kinda evolved from "matthew." dunno how, it just ... did.
last; i was thinking of names that ended in -ley, and i was watching a news broadcast and the ... "anchor" kept putting emphasis on "HE" so ... all i heard was "HEEEEEEEE" and i was thinking "LEEEEEEEY" soo..HEEEEEEEEEE LEEEEEEEEEEY
nickname(s); 'addy' is .... kind of self-explanatory. take first three letters, add a y...

eirel aster koiv
he's the newest one. http://auramix.deviantart.com/art/gearfight-107939546
first; eirel ... uhm, he doesn't go by this name so i didn't put much thought into it. this is basically edited from the word "air." "air" became "eir," "eir" became "eire," so on... his first name was supposed to be 'thomas' but eheh .... i dunno what happened there.
middle; now this is treated like it's his first name. ...to be honest, i got "aster" from looking at pictures of flowers...83'''
last; "koiv" is supposed to have those two dots over the O, so it'd be "köiv" [if it looks like k?iv to you, then i thiiink that means that you need to install a language pack or something...] but i'm not sure if the "o" would show up on some computers so i just left it at that...
well anyway koiv sounds like "keeeer - iiiiv." i got this from mutating/messing around with "coin." ... mhm.
nickname(s); .... he actually doesn't have any yet. aha.

loxapine

title; typical antipsychotic medication used in the treatment of schizophrenia.

i don't know why most of these titles are in relation with schizophrenia, that wasn't my intention because im just looking for interesting-sounding words. fff. i'll try to keep this in mind next time.

so in other words, within the next month or two, i'm going to do some update on addy and sasha's profiles, not that any of you would care but still. just for my own self-satisfaction, i guess. mmhm.
because of the massive interim between earth and aiosonne, addy and sasha age differently. on earth, their ages are decreased by about 3 years.

so on aiosonne; addy is 19 and sasha is 18. (these are their actual ages.)
and on earth; addy is 16 & sasha is 15.

that's one of the "updates" i mentioned before.
well, until next time, dearhearts.

etomidate

title; short acting intravenous anaesthetic agent used for general anaesthesia and sedation.

i started the audiomurder blog today. so being the lifeless fucker i am, it's about addy and sasha. again. except they're the ones speaking and i'm not speaking FOR them.
ofcourse... audiomurder is THEIR input on life, not mine. my outlooks go into creepshow.
dysphoria is still for character development, mhm. don't think that i'm forgetting about it. so for the remainder of this post, i'm going to arbitrarily spam you about dedwurld.

deadworld is a society (an office in hell, basically) where the Departed go to redeem their existences & live an unseen life in a parallel world that is similar to their own. the “Victims” of this society are chosen when they pass through the Gates. their presence would catch the attention of one of the guards; all of said guards are trained to watch for Departeds with numbers stamped on them. unbeknownst to these Victims though, there is a number ranging from 1 – 10 on their back (a blind spot.) and is only visible to the guards. and yes, these Victims do not have a say in the matter or any chance at getting out of deadworld.

deadworld is technically a chance at rebirth. however, in order to be reborn,
they become the opposite of what they once were, or are. for example; someone could
be nice & caring normally, but after going through deadworld, then that someone would end up being cruel and heartless. this “Reverse” process only applies to personalities and traits [and names, in some cases] and its altercations are irreversible, regardless of any bribe or situation.

the recipient of these traits generally does not notice what has happened to them until after they arrive in their parallel world; in some cases, their memories are wiped out or erased, but this is only carried out upon their request. …of course, they wouldn’t even remember asking for it in the first place.

though deadworld may sound “beneficial” to its participants (judging by description) thus far, it actually is regarded as a curse, or a plague. many of deadworld’s “Victims” did not favour another chance at life, because it was their intention to quit that Game to begin with.

“well hey, you DIED, why don’t you want to live again? you never get this kind of opportunity.” Victims are chosen regardless of desire to live again or not, as they were literally picked by their numbers. most of them, as mentioned before… don’t want to.

cyclopropane

title; anaesthetic.

after seeing my sister off today, i've decided to base a majority of my character's hometowns off existing earthplaces.
... well i've decided on only one relation thus far, but yet... satellia canon is the equivalent to munich. i dont know, german cities seem rather intriguing. and now if you'll excuse me, i have a journal to start. took a long hiatus from them and now that i have nothing better to do... yeah.
i feel rather lonely right now.

lysergic acid diethylamide

title; lsd.

i'm trying to make aster into a 'main' like sasha and addy but i'm not really feeling that much of a 'bond' here. ffffffff. i have a 'feeling' when i know that i'm going to have a liking to a character i made, but neh ... not feeling it here.
[wow, i have connections to characters. damn, i need to get out more.]
yeah, well....
i gave secondary names to addy and sasha, as part of their storyline.
see... deadworld basically screws with you.

deadworld is a society (an office in hell, basically) where the Departed go to redeem their existences & live an unseen life in a parallel world that is similar to their own. the “Victims” of this society are chosen when they pass through the Gates. their presence would catch the attention of one of the guards; all of said guards are trained to watch for Departeds with numbers stamped on them. unbeknownst to these Victims though, there is a number ranging from 1 – 10 on their back (a blind spot.) and is only visible to the guards. and yes, these Victims do not have a say in the matter or any chance at getting out of deadworld.

deadworld is technically a chance at rebirth. however, in order to be reborn,
they become the opposite of what they once were, or are. for example; someone could
be nice & caring normally, but after going through deadworld, then that someone would end up being cruel and heartless. this “Reverse” process only applies to personalities and traits [and names, in some cases] and its altercations are irreversible, regardless of any bribe or situation.

the recipient of these traits generally does not notice what has happened to them until after they arrive in their parallel world; in some cases, their memories are wiped out or erased, but this is only carried out upon their request. …of course, they wouldn’t even remember asking for it in the first place.
though deadworld may sound “beneficial” to its participants (judging by description) thus far, it actually is regarded as a curse, or a plague. many of deadworld’s “Victims” did not favour another chance at life, because it was their intention to quit that Game of life to begin with.

“well hey, you DIED, why don’t you want to live again? you never get this kind of opportunity.” Victims are chosen regardless of desire to live again or not, as they were literally picked by their numbers. most of them, as mentioned before… don’t want to.

see that "[and names, in some cases]" bit? yeah. that applied to addy and sasha.
so their secondary names are cain and abel, respectively.
[these names caught my attention, mhm. pay no attention to the names' religious background...]
mhm. must go sleep now, laptop is dying and im fighting to keep me eyes open.
... yes, the 'me' was intentional.
i speak that way sometimes. totes ooc right there...

but i also need to find a way to fend off loneliness.
help me, nonexistant readers. plzplz. that was a rhetorical question, i mean who the hell actually reads this anyway...

flupetixol

title; typical antipsychotic.

hellohello, back again. seems like i have nothing better to do once more...
thought processes died. how sad, neh? probably because it's been replaced by some unknown empty feeling but that's besides the point.

i've been thinking lately. about them.
why do i keep thinking about them? they're imaginary people, i made them up, they're not real...
yet i spend time and effort to try and define their personalities and character more.
what's the point of chasing all of this, if the world's going to end one fateful day.....all of our accomplishments are turned to failures, and we're just going to die out, miserably? and there will be silence, like it never existed. ....
so my spent time and effort are all for none, it seems...

being pessimistic again. but hey, the world IS going to end one day, not just in 2012 like all those fucking mediashit say it is. it COULD, but it also COULD NOT.
rely on the media and you're as good as FUCKING gone, man

i'm turning addy and sasha back toward drugs, no reason for addy to, but i have a reason for sasha... he's been at band practice for over 5 days, mm? who fucking heard of practice for five days STRAIGHT?
yeah, he seems nice and innocent on the surface... but really, he's still angsty and stress-y like he always was.
addy just always IS angsty. and stress-y.
but not around saku, no. generally he's like surface!sasha when she's in danger or something. but if she's just...THERE...then no. addy is still a bastard toward her like he is everyone else.
mmhm.

i have also decided that to join deadworld, ike died in a car crash.
everyone else just .... died.
addy died protecting saku,
sasha died because of a drug overdose,
and aster died because he hung himself.

idk about the others.
and i leave you with that vague description of how my characters died.
yaaay. lolkbye.

dysthymia

title; mood disorder that falls within the depression spectrum. considered chronic depression but with less severity than major depressive syndrome.

this is my third update within the past 12 hours. mmm, i have no life as you can see. i think i'll rename this blog today, from dysphoria to dysthymia. well... i don't know about that yet, i'm too used to calling it dysphoria. that, and it's easier to spell. haha.

so anyway... i've nothing better to do, thought processes are just STARTING to come back to me and sooner or later i'm going to start typing long...run-on sentences that express major amounts of detail within one topic spectrum such as this sentence. and i'll also make no sense. whatsoever. none at all. WHAT HAPPENED TO LOGIC?! logic is dead, sorry.

...speaking of dead, i've been typing about deadworld lately. you know, that series that all of my characters are a part of. as of now i only have addy's death recorded, and i somehow believe that he is the only one who died for someone.

deadworld… he joined the society soon after his sixteenth year as a result of homicide. he had been struggling under the tethers of depression for three years past at this point, and despite the undivided support of his little sister…
saku had been mindfully walking down a deserted city street, a shortcut to get home. a waste can in the distance had toppled over, causing her to look back a few times before turning her head back around. when she finally did, however, a shadowed figure had taken a hold of her arm and was forcefully dragging her into a bleakly lit alleyway. [being generic now…] all the while she had been resisting, kicking, screaming, pleading for help even though this was occurring in the dead of night, with almost no one to hear her.
and addrian, who was sent out from home to go look for her, was walking on the opposite side of the road from where this scene was taking place. [more generic] he turned sharply at the sound of the screams and pleas for assistance, dashing toward the alley as adrenaline began to coarse through his veins. upon his arrival, however, the figure whipped around and pulled out an opaque revolver from a pocket. [IDK]
“it’s either you, or the girl.” the revolver seemed to say, poised to shoot. [LOLWHUT] the figure paused for just a quickened heartbeat to load the barrel and saku’s heart probably skipped a beat or two at the scene unfolding before her. “no,” she said, tears rolling down her cheeks. “just, please go, addy…” [OHNOES, GENERIC]
and with no time to think, and barely enough time to react, the gun was cocked immediately toward saku. the trigger was pulled…three…four…five…bullets came rushing toward her, not even a second after; and saku was instinctively crouching down even though she believed that there was no way out.
BANG. she was preparing to feel the bone-shattering bullet break through her skin, but it never came; she waited a few seconds, and then some, then more… maybe she died a quick and painless death?
BANG. silence reigned for a few more seconds, curiousity overcoming her fear… saku opened her eyes to see a shadow cast over her face, a thin shape standing before her with arms outstretched, shaking, trembling… falling to its knees and toppling abruptly to the side.
BANG. she heard footsteps, and the sound of a stolen cloth bag hit the cold concrete as the shooter began to make off with whatever he could steal from her.
BANG. BANG. BANG. detachedly, addrian thought he heard saku scream his name, felt her tears against his cold cheeks, her arms wrap around his bleeding frame, listening for his slowly quieting heartbeat, almost hearing hers as well…quickening with every passing second, her whispers of denial filled with worry and confusion…
wanting nothing more than to move, or at least breathe, something to show that he was still there, grasping desperately onto consciousness like the edge of a cliff. but… he was sinking, sliding inexorably away. ......

yeah, it's just a blurb. not sure if this is the final or not. but i'm probably going to edit this blurb because i wrote it when i was on an unknown-inhalant-in-the-air high and i wasn't really thinking. haha. hence the bracket notes in there.
well, until next time loves.
or if i get bored within the next hour.
damn, i am breaking my own records here.

droperidol

title; antidopaminergic used as an antimetic and antipsychotic.

i've made twitter accounts for addy and sasha recently, and as a result of the post on creepshow [my other blog] i put them on hiatus for a while...
but their hiatus actually has a storyline, since i really had nothing better to do with them.

sasha and addy are both on the starship right now back to their little planetthing, and the rest of their band resides on that ship too; they rented out a studio near the engine rooms.

but it turns out that their studio is also a murder scene. someone died there, mm... and the entire band [except addy, because he's been on earth the whole time this was occuring, and he was called back to the ship because of it] are suspects. so they're under interrogation.

that, and most of sasha's close & worryful friends found numerous empty bottles of adderall and sleeping pills in his & addy's room. [he and addy share a room, because on this shipthing, addy was assigned to watch over sasha, like a bodyguard almost] as mentioned before, addy wasn't all there to take the drugs himself, so sasha is currently in a situation here.

if any of you know about the twitters i made for them... on sasha's, there have been pessimistic & ....doomy..things on there. because of his current state.
when he gets depressed then he gets suicidal thoughts, which in turn lead to irregular thought processes, [his twitter = thought processes] which result in ... well yeah. suicide attempts. normally in times like these sasha goes to addy for help, but addy is naturally the opposite of sasha, so if sasha is happy then addy will be sad, and vice versa...
so in this case sasha is going to be all "ADDY I NEED A WAY TO KILL MYSELF NOWPLZ"
and addy is just going to give him a look and reply with "...chill you need to enjoy liiiiife."
and all that shit...

but then again sasha can't exactly KILL HIMSELF because he's part of deadworld, which means that he literally HAS no life. [all DW members are either AIs or are undead...zombie..things]
so if you die once, you can only come CLOSE to dying... and if, per say, someone gets shot in the heart, their heart its going to bleed like any other person but it's going to STING LIKE A LIFEFUCKING BITCH and not stop beating like it normally would in this situation...
...yeah. what happened to physics, i know...
i've been thinking about death scenes alot, haha.
i'll probably update with some kinda isolation story later on.
not saying "NOW", note..

sultopride

title; dopamine antagonist.

first 09 post in pyrith, here...
yeah. nothing much has happened since my last post...like....
on the 24th. LOL i am a boring person. fail

..i'm beginning to notice that most of my titles here end with "-pride." aha, what..
really, i pick these titles subconsciously, i have no idea what the title before it (in this blog) was.
the only way i'd know is if i physically go to the page and look at the blog.

sooo...in my time gone,
i have created another...new...possible main....like addy and sasha, only this one is somewhat..moreso like sasha.
so his name is eirel aster. (would've been "aster eirel" but it looks like MASTER eirel ahah)
he's the same model that sasha is (siler) so they look alike..in a sense.
sasha has white-blond hair and milkyish blue eyes,
but aster here has white hair and red eyes.
ok so maybe they're different in terms of colours, but their outfits are made to look similar..ahaha
like for example they both have that giant white collar thing.

also...aster's never left the lab before, so he's in possession of no real world experience...whatsoever. at all. none.
yeah. im not really in the blogging kind of mood right now... my thought processes are still dormant.
fuck. maybe another time. haha.

but in other news, im probably announcing that addy is a whore.... manwhore idk bitchboy?
im still thinking about it though, haha...i've never been this "open" with characters before, mm? i used to confine them to their small, little angsty boxes...but nooo. trying to expand my horizons here...
well until next time, bitches..