title; piperidine antipsychotic drug belonging to the phenothiazine group used for the treatment of psychosis.
ein rabe in der stadt. my website is going to be overwritten soon by the new layout so might as well copy the german phrase before i forget it. eh. i've been thinking about character development these days [have nothing better to do.] and i've added onto addy's storyline, kinda.
so when addy was first assigned to the bounty hunting team, he was also given a guardian because there was no record of his family. (they're alive and well, but they're on another planet and shit so there's basically nothing about them..)
and the guardian's name is venice. her and addy started out well (acquaintances) and they still are, but not enough to care about the well-being of the other.
if given the chance, they'd kill each other. great friends, mm? most of the tension between them is addy's fault, though. since he has problems keeping ties with people. (see previous blog post. :>) but venice vaguely reminds addy of ... someone else he met so he's been keeping himself from killing her.
yeah. that's it. just had to get that out.
平成20年12月24日水曜日
平成20年12月16日火曜日
3,4-methylenedioxy-N-methylamphetamine
title; xtc, x, ecstasy. (been saving this one for a while.)
this is the kind of drug that addy uses. yknow. this, and ghb.
sasha takes ecstasy too but its only on various occasions. i.e. stress. which he's not supposed to feel but developed this feeling as a result of mutation. yeah.
....character rants. if you dont like reading these then you can stop reading herepl0x. :>
so, sasha. i've gotten comments that he's naive. and he's supposed to be.
but sasha is naturally naive because hes programmed like that, he doesnt really know how else to be.
hypothetically, addy here could teach sasha on how to be an asshole, and be all unforgiving and nasty and shit...
but at one point or another sasha's going to go all "...D: are you okaaaay imsorryyyyyy"
mhm. since he's in a band (vocals) his voice default is bullet for my valentine.
more specifically, their song 'hit the floor.' i think that has the voice i had in mind for sasha. maybe. yes no maybe possibly.
sasha is blind. equals no seeing. jaja? ja. but the headphones that he has are almost like eyes...but not. ahaha
i mean like, the headphones are actually sound synthesizers, if you will. losing one sense strengthens the rest, as they say, and i guess his hearing was given priority.
the little spots on the headphones are vents. like a..fan so that it wouldnt overheat. it also doubles as a stereo system.
the orange spot is an on/off button and the actual synthesizer itself has 4 usb/plugin ports.
ports as in, you can plug in peripherals such as a cable or a charger into his head.
sasha also has the capability of acting as a computer, like plugging a cable from his head into a tv screen and he'll take on the role of a cpu tower... that talks. in monotone. (basically it's like telling a search bar where you want to go.)
however this specific command (being a computer) takes up much if not all of his 'charged energy.' so normally after executing this command he'd either be amazingly tired or just shut down on the spot.
it's like a cellphone, yknow? once it runs out of battery/charge it's just going to shut down and bitch at you until you charge it. .... but sasha isn't going to bitch at you. he can't. is imcapable. can't bitch at you because he doesn't know HOW to.
hence, sasha hates this execution and will perform every action possible to keep it from happening. he will yield to superior force when the aforementioned command is required, though. he also doubles as an electrical outlet; again, this goes back to external peripherals. like... one can plug in, say a hair dryer, (...this has happened on more than one occasion) and it'd work for all of half an hour. et demie.
only for half an hour, exactly. why? the useage capacity for peripherals is not that expansive.
667 MHz, DDR2 SDRAM, 2 x 512 MB) -- 90GB max memory. mhm.
90GB of memory isn't that much if you think in terms that this thing is a functional android.
...addrian. adrian. addy. abby. addy? yeah. supposedly addy and sasha are rivals. for what? i dunno. its those weird instances where they think they hate each other to no end but really they're friends. whatthefuckplz. perhaps they just dont want to admit it.
seeing as theyve been stuck with each other for the past...like what, four months?
addy is too much of a bastard to be naive or cute or anything. ....
well yes, there are instances when he's nice (i.e. he's protective of his little sister. but not over protective as in "OMG IT LOOKS DANGEROUSPLZ NO GOING NEAR IIIT" ... mhm.) but normally no. nice addy equals no
if he's nice then thats probably the result of getting high. since normally he just snaps at any given moment. he's supposedly near-deaf (carried over from sasha) but he is sensitive to sounds like heartbeat. and blinking. blinking has sounds? ... sure it does.
misunderstood, deceptive, volatile, insecure. melancholic. addy is what you might call me little (..yes i put "me" little.) "emochild." sasha used to be like that but i separated sasha into addy and taku by means of pseudo-lobotomy. :> yes, he cuts, yes, he angsts, but that is a stage that is long forgotten.
addy is moreso a drifter as compared to his past. distant, but not aloof; problems with keeping ties with people. people skills are bad. bad. bad. he insists on building a wall of isolation between himself and the rest of society.
i mean, seriously, you'd see that this isolation wall is ever present once i break it down for you.
he generally possesses a great dislike of the world. prefers to be left alone.
the reason or origin of this is not quite known, but he's far from not being able to express this dislike. addy sees people only for their use, not their worth. they're tools, he believes. once they've fulfilled their purpose then they're of no use anymore. which is exactly why he tends to have a grudge toward humans.
the negative and pessimistic view of the world and its people could be the result of past trauma, its effects still lingering, alive. his perception of the aforementioned trauma is somewhat latent; there, present but not realised; whether he knows it or not, it affects everything he does. speech. thought processes. in this case, perception; it led him to develop headvoices. yeah: schizophrenia, if you would. he left home at an early age and is far from void of real world experience. and as a result of his departure, he’s more paranoid than he should be.
appearances. this plays a big role in this 'wall', yknow? his hair covers his eyes, indicating that he doesn't want the world to see him, or vice versa. and he's almost deaf. doesn't want to HEAR the world.
the questionable collar bound around his neck isn't quite there for decoration. it's mainly there for aphyxiation. with each passing day he makes it a bit tighter so that it would choke him. thus far, efforts have been either failures or he's still been able to breathe. as you can see, addy has a rather big interest in suicide.
yeah giant fucking rant again
kbye
this is the kind of drug that addy uses. yknow. this, and ghb.
sasha takes ecstasy too but its only on various occasions. i.e. stress. which he's not supposed to feel but developed this feeling as a result of mutation. yeah.
....character rants. if you dont like reading these then you can stop reading herepl0x. :>
so, sasha. i've gotten comments that he's naive. and he's supposed to be.
but sasha is naturally naive because hes programmed like that, he doesnt really know how else to be.
hypothetically, addy here could teach sasha on how to be an asshole, and be all unforgiving and nasty and shit...
but at one point or another sasha's going to go all "...D: are you okaaaay imsorryyyyyy"
mhm. since he's in a band (vocals) his voice default is bullet for my valentine.
more specifically, their song 'hit the floor.' i think that has the voice i had in mind for sasha. maybe. yes no maybe possibly.
sasha is blind. equals no seeing. jaja? ja. but the headphones that he has are almost like eyes...but not. ahaha
i mean like, the headphones are actually sound synthesizers, if you will. losing one sense strengthens the rest, as they say, and i guess his hearing was given priority.
the little spots on the headphones are vents. like a..fan so that it wouldnt overheat. it also doubles as a stereo system.
the orange spot is an on/off button and the actual synthesizer itself has 4 usb/plugin ports.
ports as in, you can plug in peripherals such as a cable or a charger into his head.
sasha also has the capability of acting as a computer, like plugging a cable from his head into a tv screen and he'll take on the role of a cpu tower... that talks. in monotone. (basically it's like telling a search bar where you want to go.)
however this specific command (being a computer) takes up much if not all of his 'charged energy.' so normally after executing this command he'd either be amazingly tired or just shut down on the spot.
it's like a cellphone, yknow? once it runs out of battery/charge it's just going to shut down and bitch at you until you charge it. .... but sasha isn't going to bitch at you. he can't. is imcapable. can't bitch at you because he doesn't know HOW to.
hence, sasha hates this execution and will perform every action possible to keep it from happening. he will yield to superior force when the aforementioned command is required, though. he also doubles as an electrical outlet; again, this goes back to external peripherals. like... one can plug in, say a hair dryer, (...this has happened on more than one occasion) and it'd work for all of half an hour. et demie.
only for half an hour, exactly. why? the useage capacity for peripherals is not that expansive.
667 MHz, DDR2 SDRAM, 2 x 512 MB) -- 90GB max memory. mhm.
90GB of memory isn't that much if you think in terms that this thing is a functional android.
...addrian. adrian. addy. abby. addy? yeah. supposedly addy and sasha are rivals. for what? i dunno. its those weird instances where they think they hate each other to no end but really they're friends. whatthefuckplz. perhaps they just dont want to admit it.
seeing as theyve been stuck with each other for the past...like what, four months?
addy is too much of a bastard to be naive or cute or anything. ....
well yes, there are instances when he's nice (i.e. he's protective of his little sister. but not over protective as in "OMG IT LOOKS DANGEROUSPLZ NO GOING NEAR IIIT" ... mhm.) but normally no. nice addy equals no
if he's nice then thats probably the result of getting high. since normally he just snaps at any given moment. he's supposedly near-deaf (carried over from sasha) but he is sensitive to sounds like heartbeat. and blinking. blinking has sounds? ... sure it does.
misunderstood, deceptive, volatile, insecure. melancholic. addy is what you might call me little (..yes i put "me" little.) "emochild." sasha used to be like that but i separated sasha into addy and taku by means of pseudo-lobotomy. :> yes, he cuts, yes, he angsts, but that is a stage that is long forgotten.
addy is moreso a drifter as compared to his past. distant, but not aloof; problems with keeping ties with people. people skills are bad. bad. bad. he insists on building a wall of isolation between himself and the rest of society.
i mean, seriously, you'd see that this isolation wall is ever present once i break it down for you.
he generally possesses a great dislike of the world. prefers to be left alone.
the reason or origin of this is not quite known, but he's far from not being able to express this dislike. addy sees people only for their use, not their worth. they're tools, he believes. once they've fulfilled their purpose then they're of no use anymore. which is exactly why he tends to have a grudge toward humans.
the negative and pessimistic view of the world and its people could be the result of past trauma, its effects still lingering, alive. his perception of the aforementioned trauma is somewhat latent; there, present but not realised; whether he knows it or not, it affects everything he does. speech. thought processes. in this case, perception; it led him to develop headvoices. yeah: schizophrenia, if you would. he left home at an early age and is far from void of real world experience. and as a result of his departure, he’s more paranoid than he should be.
appearances. this plays a big role in this 'wall', yknow? his hair covers his eyes, indicating that he doesn't want the world to see him, or vice versa. and he's almost deaf. doesn't want to HEAR the world.
the questionable collar bound around his neck isn't quite there for decoration. it's mainly there for aphyxiation. with each passing day he makes it a bit tighter so that it would choke him. thus far, efforts have been either failures or he's still been able to breathe. as you can see, addy has a rather big interest in suicide.
yeah giant fucking rant again
kbye
平成20年12月7日日曜日
4-methyl-aminorex
title; stimulant of the 2-amino-5-aryloxazoline class. banned in many countries.
happy december.
s'about eight/seven days until sasha's creation date...thing. since he was, vaguely speaking, a 'persona' of myself, he shares my half birthday. and yes, my actual birthday is in june. june is the sixth month, so add 6 months to that (since there are 12 months in a year and half of 12 is 6....ffff.) and you get december. ... yeah. obligatory explanation. does anyone actually read this? ... hello self, thank you for reading what you typed mindlessly all those days ago
i've been drafting on addy's backstory for a while and the only conclusion ive come to is that the mass-murdering stage is only associated with the brain imbalance and therefore is rendered as secondary...henceforth is not relevant to the plot. i was thinking along the lines of science experimentation, but we all know how overused that topic is these days. ..whatever the case, the backstory must contain some element of death or the concept of dying because addy here was solely based upon that word and that word alone. 'psycho' was the instigator, and therefore does not quite count. dont ask why, self or reader, i dont know why.
antipsychotic 2-amino-benzamine-classed sedatives.
... yeah. upon finishing that last rhetorical remark, i immediately thought of those words. i don't think they even make sense when put together. when alone, im sure they do. because in this instance, i inhaled them and vomited them back out, resulting in that mass of poorly-put-together medical terms up there.
i love how i can rant mindlessly and not even think about what im typing. its not like anyone actually reaaads these, anyway. damn you self isolating blog.
anyway. sasha's blind again. i stole addy's eye back from him and now theres this loosely placed acrylic orb where it used to be. it's funny. falls out sometimes.
addy... i dont know. im getting the way i was when i first created sasha. all i could talk about was addy and if one brought him up in a conversation i'd go off in a rant. it's not like a actually CARE for him though, as in the motherly-i created you-type way. i don't see any of my characters as friends.
(though i do daydream about addy and sasha in realtime and people freaking out because of rezzz and emmm just blatantly floating behind addy ahahaha)
rather, i see them as tools. ahaha. so terrible. (this is why im staying single. not cut out to be a mum.)
i inflict damage upon them and i also drabble about them getting injured severely and/or fatally in most cases. other times i just write out death scenes. and i keep all of these in one notebook; if anyone sees it, they'd seriously think i have a malignant death fetish or something. i have fetishes for certain names...but... death is a concept i find rather amusing.
i memorized a list of addictive and commonly overdosed drugs. yay. i wrote it down in my sketchbook...and silly me, lots of people look through that book. they thought i was a stoner. ahahaha. how cute.
...addy was recently introduced to alcohol and is on the road to becoming a counterpart of dearest coz ike. i dont even like ike. why did i create ike? oh yeah. those obnoxiously large hats. i drew too many girls back in the day and i solely avoided drawing boys due to the fact that i was accustomed to feminity. and now, presently, i seldom draw girls (except for saku and M, mcourse.) and i wholeheartedly announce "LOOK I CAN DRAW GIRLS!" whenever i do so. i draw a lot of guys now and i stop to think sometimes as to how i could survive being unable to draw them when i was younger.
i remember when i was 9 i drew a boy and it looked like roadkill. aaaagh
then again my 'art' is made of fail
i'd go into a rant about that but thats for TTLUS. too lazy and sleepy to update TTLUS right now ahahaha
ranting in DYS was not my original intention but ok
yeah ... this turned out to be a giant fucking rant
going into realtime rants in TTLUS at another date
bye.
happy december.
s'about eight/seven days until sasha's creation date...thing. since he was, vaguely speaking, a 'persona' of myself, he shares my half birthday. and yes, my actual birthday is in june. june is the sixth month, so add 6 months to that (since there are 12 months in a year and half of 12 is 6....ffff.) and you get december. ... yeah. obligatory explanation. does anyone actually read this? ... hello self, thank you for reading what you typed mindlessly all those days ago
i've been drafting on addy's backstory for a while and the only conclusion ive come to is that the mass-murdering stage is only associated with the brain imbalance and therefore is rendered as secondary...henceforth is not relevant to the plot. i was thinking along the lines of science experimentation, but we all know how overused that topic is these days. ..whatever the case, the backstory must contain some element of death or the concept of dying because addy here was solely based upon that word and that word alone. 'psycho' was the instigator, and therefore does not quite count. dont ask why, self or reader, i dont know why.
antipsychotic 2-amino-benzamine-classed sedatives.
... yeah. upon finishing that last rhetorical remark, i immediately thought of those words. i don't think they even make sense when put together. when alone, im sure they do. because in this instance, i inhaled them and vomited them back out, resulting in that mass of poorly-put-together medical terms up there.
i love how i can rant mindlessly and not even think about what im typing. its not like anyone actually reaaads these, anyway. damn you self isolating blog.
anyway. sasha's blind again. i stole addy's eye back from him and now theres this loosely placed acrylic orb where it used to be. it's funny. falls out sometimes.
addy... i dont know. im getting the way i was when i first created sasha. all i could talk about was addy and if one brought him up in a conversation i'd go off in a rant. it's not like a actually CARE for him though, as in the motherly-i created you-type way. i don't see any of my characters as friends.
(though i do daydream about addy and sasha in realtime and people freaking out because of rezzz and emmm just blatantly floating behind addy ahahaha)
rather, i see them as tools. ahaha. so terrible. (this is why im staying single. not cut out to be a mum.)
i inflict damage upon them and i also drabble about them getting injured severely and/or fatally in most cases. other times i just write out death scenes. and i keep all of these in one notebook; if anyone sees it, they'd seriously think i have a malignant death fetish or something. i have fetishes for certain names...but... death is a concept i find rather amusing.
i memorized a list of addictive and commonly overdosed drugs. yay. i wrote it down in my sketchbook...and silly me, lots of people look through that book. they thought i was a stoner. ahahaha. how cute.
...addy was recently introduced to alcohol and is on the road to becoming a counterpart of dearest coz ike. i dont even like ike. why did i create ike? oh yeah. those obnoxiously large hats. i drew too many girls back in the day and i solely avoided drawing boys due to the fact that i was accustomed to feminity. and now, presently, i seldom draw girls (except for saku and M, mcourse.) and i wholeheartedly announce "LOOK I CAN DRAW GIRLS!" whenever i do so. i draw a lot of guys now and i stop to think sometimes as to how i could survive being unable to draw them when i was younger.
i remember when i was 9 i drew a boy and it looked like roadkill. aaaagh
then again my 'art' is made of fail
i'd go into a rant about that but thats for TTLUS. too lazy and sleepy to update TTLUS right now ahahaha
ranting in DYS was not my original intention but ok
yeah ... this turned out to be a giant fucking rant
going into realtime rants in TTLUS at another date
bye.
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